shit happens, life changes.

think

2010-09-02T16:11:00.000-07:00

seriously, failing process economics got me thinking....

is it due to my playfulness or is it because i really have no talent in it?

im not perfect.

i know that is my weakness but i didnt put more effort into it. in fact, knowing that i suck at it, i avoided it.

20% gone down the freaking drain. im so fucked.

stress

2010-08-16T04:14:00.001-07:00

the problem with being good is that there is pressure for you to live up to the expectations of others.

there is always a price to pay.

do you?

2010-08-03T04:03:00.000-07:00

do you believe that god really has a plan for everyone?

people who know me know that i don believe a shit what christians have to say.

neither do i believe in the god crap.

but recently im beginning to see a pattern in my life.

a pattern that was always there but i failed to see.

god has always been giving me the same test in different phases of my life and i always failed it.

now its happening again.

this time i am prepared to take the test and pass it.

maybe god really has a plan for me.

stand up please

2010-07-31T04:02:00.000-07:00

this is definitely the lowest point in these 2 years.

get back on track.

be better.

create a breakthrough.

achieve excellence.

mind starts to clear

2010-07-26T04:12:00.000-07:00

really wonder why did i make such mistakes despite what i know.

i guess i am just too stubborn and naive.

I now finally understands the difference between theory and practice.

theory without practice is not learning at all.

ready

2010-07-22T15:27:00.000-07:00

im ready for the next upgrade.

in 1 week i will be new again.

newer, better.

the year so far

2010-07-13T11:38:00.001-07:00

in my mind, i had two targets to meet this year.

so far, i haven meet any.

in fact, i've just screwed both up.

looks like i got to turbo charge my engine so that i can accomplish these goals by the end of december.

this is so interesting and exciting.

happened again

2010-06-21T02:48:00.000-07:00

Seems like every semester, there will be one exam paper that i will screw up. Its not that I don't know how to do the questions. I have a habit of wanting to solve problems that I cannot solve. Its like a compulsive disorder. This made me very vulnerable in exam situations where you got to move on if you got stuck.

I am always aware of this problem but this time, after today's exam, I had enough.

Gonna kick this son of a bitch habit. NOW.

lazy = death

2010-06-13T21:20:00.000-07:00

shit.

i should have done my tuts before going for test 2 last month. the questions are farking exactly the same. i wouldnt get such shit marks if i had done my tuts. now that i've done the tuts, im gonna own the exams tomorrow.

bring it on!

HOLY

2010-06-12T19:01:00.000-07:00

SHIT.

i freaking swear that i dreamt about england vs usa 1:1 draw yesterday night.

i hope i get more of these dreams before the match starts....ahahaha.

same...

2010-06-09T18:21:00.001-07:00

same dream...again...

tch316

2010-06-06T05:23:00.001-07:00

i keep having this dream for the past 2 days. the things that happen in this dream are not anything out of the ordinary. its just a dream about something normal. but the difference between this dream and other dreams is that it is so compelling and so real i can feel it happening whenever i think about it when i am awake.

will the dream come true?

lost it

2010-05-17T01:01:00.000-07:00

seriously...i must learn to control temper.

somebody tried to taunt me today with some stupid remarks. i got pissed off right away and i said something really awful.

Something that i really regretted saying.

control. please.

HAHA

2010-05-12T23:34:00.000-07:00

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SEMESTER.

HAHA.

begin

2010-04-25T04:39:00.000-07:00

the end of one journey is just the beginning of another.

don let the end of one journey stop you from going forward in life.

dont let one setback decide your destiny.

look for new opportunities and start a new journey.

CP

2010-04-12T01:41:00.000-07:00

im facing a crunch point right now and i feel like i am losing the battle. this semester is shit terrible.

havent had any outstanding marks for any tests yet.

i have to persevere.

to turn the tides i will have to reevaluate my current back-to-the-slacker lifestyle.

i will give myself the rest of the week to adjust back.

i've done it before and succeeded.
i am going to make it happen again, because i enjoy it.

term break

2010-04-11T03:20:00.001-07:00

how i wish i never had a mid term break.

when the uni gives you a mid term break, they expect you to study for tests after the "break".

why cant they just call it mid term study week?

this way students like me will not have the wrong thinking that it is a break and become complacent.

1 test, 5 weeks of notes, 12 hours left.

0 lectures covered.
0 tutorials covered.

may the force be with me.

....

2010-04-01T16:16:00.001-07:00

lol crazy night.

that wasnt me.

damn it

2010-03-31T06:11:00.001-07:00

went into a test unprepared today.

i guess the grief for this small failure will keep me motivated for the rest of this semester.

relieve

2010-03-29T00:17:00.000-07:00

if today, you just acted childishly and hurt somebody, I urge you to say sorry to that person right away.

I've got the balls to do it and so do you.

and once again, the books proved to be correct again. i was an idiot for trying to go back to my childish self and demanded a win-lose situation.

tomorrow

2010-03-28T03:35:00.000-07:00

i am so freaking childish.

i hope everything turns out fine tomorrow.

I will make it happen tomorrow.

stubborn

2010-03-24T04:45:00.000-07:00

i dont care about what i've learned in books.

i still feel that you owe me an apology.

2 years

2010-03-21T04:29:00.000-07:00

about 1 and a half year ago, i was reborn.

i was reborn into a better person. i saw a much disciplined self. i was happy with the change.

today, i have decided to "upgrade" my mindset again. i really hope i can make another breakthrough change that will make my life even happier and hopefully be able to make up for all the loss time in the past.

week 3

2010-03-18T15:38:00.000-07:00

so far these 3 weeks has been easy on me.

but thats why i feel so slack and now i just cant stop sleeping. but all these slacking will end next week because all the assignments are coming.

and when the assignments come, the tests will follow.

its another 13 weeks of mind battle and discipline again.

my god

2010-03-13T16:38:00.001-08:00

all the reputation i've been building for the past one year in sydney as a good boy has all gone down to the drain.

lost control of myself yesterday during the games night and all those jokes just kept pouring out.

good news: i am still good at my jokes
bad news: christians are offended by my jokes

whats new?

internet

2010-03-05T19:41:00.000-08:00

internet was down for a week. bored to the max.

but when i finally had the internet back, i found that there was nothing to do online either.

throughout the history of mankind, saints and sages mentioned that feelings and emotions will cloud one's judgement.

i always thought that they were just foolish.

now i begin to wonder...

are they?

pointless

2010-02-12T16:29:00.000-08:00

whats the use of having so much knowledge to help people...

when i cant help myself?

idiot

2010-02-01T15:24:00.000-08:00

lost my cool. i always laugh at idiots who cannot control their temper.

but i didnt realize that i am an idiot myself.

learn, i must.

New Poem

2010-01-21T23:19:00.001-08:00

A new poem to understand life better.

The name of this poem is: Once upon a time

Your mum, is a woman.

Your dad, is a man.

Your dog, is an animal.

All of them,
including you and me,
was a sperm.

my best

2010-01-20T04:56:00.000-08:00

Despite improving myself for the past one year, i still feel that I have much more to improve. Last year, I aimed to transform myself to a new person by 2010, I would be able to live the kind of life I've always dream of.

Although I am happy that I've seen the results and improvements in this one year, I am still not there yet.

2009 is filled with accomplishements and satisfaction and I am proud of how much I've changed in this one year.

2010 will be even better. I will work twice as hard and thrice as smart compared to 2009.

I will reach there eventually and then I will set higher goals then.

I am not the crazy kid anymore. Maybe I am still crazy but I've grown. Grown to use my head finally.

in sydney

2010-01-12T07:55:00.000-08:00

9hours of shit boring flight.

whats going to happen next in sydney?

Going to...

2010-01-11T13:40:00.000-08:00

I will be heading for sydney in 3 hours time.

Shit sleep.

New Year Resolutions

2009-12-31T19:54:00.000-08:00

I've met none of my resolutions in 2008 so this year im going to make it easier for myself to achieve these goals.

1. Up my average marks. Bottom line - Average marks remain the same.
I was looking at my report cards from sec and pri school. I realize that my marks are always below 60 for every subject except chinese which has never reach above 75 before. So my scores in university last year was an achievement for me.

2. Stay happy.

This year I only have two goals to meet. I hope having lesser goals means that I will have more energy for each goal.

Its the first day of the new year. I shall begin this wonderful afternoon with a Zinger burger.

May the Force be with You.

Its time...

2009-12-26T15:07:00.000-08:00

The end of the year is here and I did alot of reflecting yesterday.

Although the end of 2008 and the beginning of 2009 was a little shit for me but overall, 2009 was the most fulfilling year I ever had. I didnt hang out with my friends as much nor did I game at all but it turned out to be my happiest year.

Hanging out with friends and gaming are fun things to do but I wasnt happy in the past. I was always looking at the negative side of good things and anything negative are always negative.

Shit happened and thats when my life changed. I learnt how to look at things differently. I learnt to be grateful for all good things that is happening to me and benefit from all bad things that happened.

I am now a changed man and I hope that 2010 will be even a better year for me.

NOW

2009-12-18T09:23:00.000-08:00

Still slacking.

Help.

slacker holiday

2009-12-03T04:48:00.001-08:00

my results were released yesterday. did pretty well and i am happy for myself.

since i returned to hk last week, i have been sleeping more than 12 hours a day. didnt do anything productive.

its time to wake up.

back

2009-11-24T19:28:00.000-08:00

backed in hk.

exams

2009-11-11T03:11:00.001-08:00

exams are over.

i will do better the next time.

3

2009-11-09T01:31:00.000-08:00

exam number 3.

finally something normal.

too bad it is only a general education, not a core subject.

at least i am feeling better now.

....

2009-11-07T23:19:00.000-08:00

no mood to study.
no mood to play.
no mood to sleep.
no mood to wake up.
no mood to eat.

my sleep and meals are becoming irregular again. i already have no more strength to keep these habits going.
haven had a nightmares for a long time and i had two in the past two days.
both about 3006.

3006 has hit me harder than what i had expected.

the higher you climb, the harder the fall...

i have to stop thinking about it.

realization

2009-11-05T03:32:00.001-08:00

just took a shower.

i realize i was too harsh on myself in the previous post.
if i fail i just have to face what i have to face.

this is life, not a playground.

if i pass, i will major in advance process control and i will score for that to make up for my mistakes in this subject.

if i pass....

wtf

2009-11-05T03:06:00.000-08:00

second exam FUCKED UP.

nobody that i know could do the paper but it was definitely well within my capacity to pass this paper.

BUT SHIT HAPPENS.

i read the the first question (part a) and used up half of the booklet and wrote SHIT.

FUCK

Half way through the question i suspect that the question cannot be so difficult and check the question again to found out i wasted 45mins doing SHIT.

tHE PAPER WAS ALREADY TOUGH ENOUGH AND I HAVE TO MEET WITH SUCH SHIT.

FUCK.

FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT EYES.

this was my most confident subject and the subject that i was most proud of because i was doing so well.

now i dont even think i can pass the course even though i only need 20/100 to pass.

FUCKING SHIT.

havent felt like this for a long time already and i thought i would never have to be depress because of my results again as long as i study hard and change my old bad habits.

this is demoralizing.

i almost cried in the exam hall. serious.

this is the last time this is going to happen. i will read questions twice from today onwards.

paper 1

2009-11-03T17:09:00.000-08:00

difficulty of first paper - 6/10

Although I have been scoring in elec1111, I know that it is my weakest subject. And I learnt that if you are not as smart as others, luck can help you to become as good as they are in terms of grades.

But I guess my luck for elec111 ran out before the exams.
The only tutorial question that i didnt attempt came out in the exams.

Almost went crazy when I saw that shit.

And I was so tired after the exams that I slept at 1030pm. Woke up at around half an hour later and realized that I havent had my dinner.

1 down 3 to go.

This semester

2009-10-20T15:46:00.001-07:00

EXAMS!

LD

2009-10-05T15:02:00.000-07:00

Had a long weekend due to the Labor Day.

I slept through almost the whole Saturday. Woke up only for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was only truely awake at 9pm.

Put myself in semi-working state on sunday and did some work.

Slacked through the Labor Day Monday studying for a quiz.

Break is over.

Time to start my engines again.

6 more weeks and this semester will be over.

End

2009-10-02T07:40:00.000-07:00

Finally it is the end of the busiest week of the year. I slept an average of 4 hours for the past 9 days.

Extremely shag for such a weak and lazy person like me.

I did really badly for an assignment and a test, both are from the same subject. All the hardwork that I put in for this subject in the first half of the semester has gone to waste because it was only half of the week when I screwed both the test and assignment up.

I shall spend this Labor Day weekend to take a break and motivate myself again.

Half

2009-09-26T15:53:00.000-07:00

Half of the busiest week of the year is over. All will be over the next week.

I was actually planning to give up one of the assignment last thursday because i just didnt have enough sleep and I was putting too much stress on myself. (The deadline for the assignment was on Friday but I had 2 tests before that)

Luckily and unluckily, this assignment was especially tough and only a handful could do it. So the lecturer came in and extended the deadline to next monday.

Soon it will be over.

DO

2009-09-21T16:09:00.000-07:00

its the busiest week of the year - 4 tests and 2 assignments.

if i manage to overcome these tests and assignments with good grades, i believe i can conquer any semester.

Do or do not, there is no try.

May the Force be with Me.

reminder

2009-09-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

from the drama that happened in school yesterday, it reminded me of the days when i was still acting like a kid causing trouble everywhere.

that was just less than 3 years ago.

i was always causing trouble, being childish, acting silly, creating unnecessary attention but nobody ever told or warn me seriously about it and i wasnt intelligent enough to realize that.

that was until the counseling session from cptc with hw.

I was lucky to have him as a mentor for that short period of time. One important lesson I learnt is that ignorance or any form of reasonable stories cannot be used as an excuse for a wrong doing.

Now that I know what went wrong in that 18 years of my life, I am never going back to that shithole ever again.

the eyes of the devil

2009-09-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

This afternoon I took a short 30minutes nap and I had one scary shit dream. In this dream, I dont know how but I was looking at myself through the eyes of the devil. The "I" in this dream was doing something which I had always wanted to do. The "I" was living my lifetime desire in this dream and I am looking at it through the eyes of the devil.

Then a voice asked me "Do you want it?"

.......
.......
.......

"No, not through the devil." I said

My spirit starts to float out of the devil's body but before I could see the devil's form, my alarm rang and I woke up.

This is the second time I had this dream.

why?

2009-09-09T16:20:00.000-07:00

why do I have more work to do during the term break?

why is sleep always not enough?

why are some people so fucked up?

why do I have to ask why?

why?

Classified X

2009-09-01T03:12:00.002-07:00

What you are about to read really happened. For the past 1 month, strange things have been happening in the house I am staying. Nobody was able to explain why. I didnt thought of writing these down until what happened today.

Before I tell you what happened today, let me first show you some of the weird things that happened before this (not in order as I could not remember which one happened first).

1)
It was 8:30am. J, T (2 of my housemates) and me left the house for school, leaving S (another housemate) sleeping at home alone. S heard knocks at his door which woke him up. He looked at his phone, which says 8:45am and said "Come in". At that time, he didnt know that we had left the house. Knocks continued. S got irritated, thinking that we are playing a prank on him to distrub his sleep. "Come in if you need anything!"he shouted. The knocks stopped and he went back to sleep.

We didnt know about the knocks until he asked if anybody was knocking at his door at 8:45am that morning.

2)
All 4 of us was in the kitchen one night. From the door of the kitchen, we can see a pathway that leads the storeroom to T's room (but we cant see the door of both the storeroom and T's room). J and T was looking at that direction when they their soccer ball rolling from the storeroom to T's room. Storeroom door was closed when we went to check it out.

3)
This happened last week. I was the second last to come home from school. Our main door has 2 locking mechanisms: Locking the door with the key or locking the door inside out with a chain (NOBODY uses this AT ALL). I locked the door with my key and went up to my room. A few hours later there were banging at the door. T was locked outside by the chain. This is impossible unless one of us did it from inside the house.

We were all in our rooms studying.

4)
This happened just a few days ago after (3). We do not lock the door to the backyard with the key because it was just troublesome (our washing machine is at the backyard). Door to the backyard was locked with a key when I went down to wash my clothes a few days ago....

Nobody locked it when asked.

5)
This happened today. J left the house at 2:30pm and I came back at 3:00pm. Between this half an hour, nobody was at home. MAIN DOOR WAS LOCKED FROM INSIDE OUT WITH THE CHAIN!.

I had no other ways of getting into the house other than using my finger to fiddle the chain open.

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I dont want to jump into conclusion to say that this house was haunted because we lived here for 3 months and things only started happening from a month ago. This just dosent makes sense.

On the other hand, we got this house at really cheap rent (cheaper than average price).

I will report more shit if it happens again.

Animal farm

2009-08-26T00:58:00.001-07:00

The weather has turned warmer since last week and a series of animals has been appearing in the house that I currently live.

At first, there were a few houseflies flying into the house. A few days later, two different housemates saw spiders in two different occasions.

Then, it was cockcroach. Soon after, one of the windows in the house was infested with a bunch of ants carrying away what we believed to be cockroach eggs.

Then yesterday, we saw a rat on the toilet window. WTF?!
My housemate push it down from the ledge to the backyard. This morning while one of my housemate was doing his laundry in the backyard, he saw a small snake.....

Looks hope we will get to see an eagle preying on the snake soon....

Term test week has begun.
May the Force be with Me.

wtf?!

2009-08-20T04:22:00.000-07:00

I have a habit of just bringing a stack of blank paper to lecture and write down important points and then write them all over again in my lecture notes when I get home to revise. As a result, I have many pieces of paper on my desks and it looks messy. Plus, I don't always have the time to write the notes all over again. Therefore, I decided to try writing the points directly on the lecture notes starting this week.

But shit happens. I lost one damn piece of lecture notes today with all those points inside. I must have left it in the lecture hall somehow.

damn it!

Next week is the mid term test, I better get a copy of the lost lecture notes fast.....

May the Force be with everyone.

expectations

2009-08-15T16:21:00.000-07:00

Maybe it was a mistake to take the 2 tougher general education.

Maybe I've overestimated myself.

Maybe I was just stupid.

Or maybe I will discover a new limit within myself.

second time...

2009-07-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

Today I was having lunch and one of my university mates was saying there is a blood donation drive and I should go along with him.

I have never donated blood before. I tried once when I was in polytechnic but they didnt allow me to donate because I forgot to bring my identification card. Anyway, I agreed and straight after lunch, I went to the blood donation centre.

I filled the form, sat for the interview and then lied on the bed waiting for the nurse to poke a needle into my veins to pump out my precious blood. I felt the needle going through my veins but....

"Oh no, unlucky day" said the nurse

Me: huh??

Nurse: You might not be able to donate your blood today

Me: eh??

The nurse was fiddling with something and then she said "There is not enough blood coming out"

Me: Why?

Nurse: You should hydrate yourself before coming or maybe your veins are born small.

Me: :(

Nurse: You should drink enough water the day before this.

Moral of this story : Drink lots of water the day before you are going to donate your blood!

Second time I TRIED to donate my blood.

argh

2009-07-28T18:18:00.000-07:00

time time time time time time.

everybody need more time!

Semester 2 is starting....

2009-07-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

Last semester, I took 2 maths subject and 1 business subject.

I had always been struggling with mathematics since the day I was born. Everybody knows that. So I was pretty fucked up handling 2 maths subjects at the same time. The only thing that was different is that I worked hard for my maths this time round and finally for once in my life, I didnt have to worry about passing my maths after the exams.

That feeling is FUCKING AWESOME.

I had never taken any business subject before in my life so the business subject was a challenge to me as well. Learnt alot from it but I was really worried about the results because I didnt do too well for the finals.

Still, I conquered all three of the subjects.

Semester 2 is starting....

I am going to take 2 engineering subjects and 2 more business courses. I screwed up extremely badly for the 2 engineering subjects when I was in the polytechnic. So this is like a second chance life/God has given me and I am not going to waste this opportunity.

The reason for taking 2 more business courses is because I didnt really do well for the business course and I just want to try it again and taste the feeling of scoring for a business course.

Semester 2 is starting....

and I am going to bring out my best.

1 year

2009-07-07T18:37:00.000-07:00

Last year this time, I left Singapore for good.

Didnt regret the decision but now I realize that Sinagpore is not as f*** up as I thought. I hope to be able visit Singapore again soon.

I miss the roti prata, hokkien mee, laksa, weather and friends.

Omfg

2009-07-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkmRkg9ib1M&eurl

for thos who REALLY have the time to burn, you can try watching this pointless video about a young man driving a tank.

My advise is don't.

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My exams are over. Sleeping like a pig everyday.

Another global warming shit

2009-06-24T06:05:00.001-07:00

http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/latest/5676807/global-warming-isnt-real-says-fielding/

so if this is true, there is no global warming.

but life still goes on as usual, even if the findings say that there is.

Another global warming shit

2009-06-24T06:05:00.000-07:00

bad shit

2009-06-20T00:47:00.000-07:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I did badly for one of the exams. Real bad. Cant even describe how foolish I was. I panicked and doubted my answers for one of the questions. In the end I cancelled it and did that question with the wrong method.

Its about 20 percent of the whole damn paper.

zzz.

Shall blog again when the exams are over.

Nobody

2009-06-08T03:18:00.000-07:00

If you have a lot of time to spare, you should try watching this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqxENMKaeCU

Talks about global warming and nature crap. This video, along with many other shit(videos, books, interview, etc.) that tries "save the world" just shows that only a small amount of people is willing to give a damn four our future generation and mother earth.

Will you take more of public transport after you finish watching this video?
Will you not buy a car after finish watching this video?
Will you buy "environmental friendly" foodstocks after finish watching this video?
Will you use less electricity after after finish watching this video?

I am not trying to be a fucktard but I guess more than half of us wouldnt give a shit . If ask people of wealthy nations to dig the ground with their bare hands to collect rain water you will not get a "yes" or "no" reply. Instead you will be told to Fuck Off.

Nobody gives a shit no more for mother earth.
Thats sad.

End of 12 weeks

2009-06-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

This is my 14th week in Sydney and that means I've completed 12 weeks of school. This also implies that it is the start of the examination next week.

I feeling typing one load of shit about this semester but I am feeling sleepy now.

I shall go take a nap first.

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Views

2009-05-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: These are just my views. They might not be true.

I was doing a project on nuclear power a few weeks ago. Now, I am stuck with a clean coal project. After writing so many lousy bullshit posts, its time I think I should write something to educate the people who are still writing this.

This is gonna be really educational.

I shall cut the crap and not old arguement writing style. I will just tell you guys my conclusion. After having read both techbologies, I must say that both techbologies are not really clean. BUT WE NEED TO USE THEM RIGHT NOW!

No, not because I am a evil mother fucker. Not because I dont believe in renewable sources of energy. Its because we need to WAKE UP. Renewable sources of energy is good stuff and its the solution to ALL these problems.

BUT...WHY DONT WE ALL USE THE FUCKING RENEWABLE ENERGY?!

QN: Smoking is bad. Why isnt it banned?
ANS: TAX MONEY

ITS POLITICAL!!!

QN: Renewable energy is clean. Why dont we use it?
ANS:
1) RENEWABLE ENERGY TO BUILD and business men dosent like that
2) Too many countries have coal base power plants.
3) COAL is DIRT DIRTY and it is DIRT CHEAP
4) Businessmen likes CHEAP ENERGY
5) Too many companies WANT cheap energy source
6) Some countries (Not mentioning names) are coal superpowers.
7) Some countries are nuclear superpowers
8) Some countries just dosent have accessed to those renewable sources.

LOOK AT THOSE POINTS!!!
WAKE UP!!
Its not about the TECHNOLOGY!
Its about the ECONOMY and POLITICS!

RENEWABLE ENERGY IS FREE!!!NOBODY CAN MAKE MUCH PROFITS FROM IT!!!

Which brings us to the two cheap energy sources. Economically, they are good sources of income and cheap energy source. But not "GREEN". They are nuclear and coal energy.

Again, please WAKE UP!

I already said, its all about economy and politics. So if green groups really want to change the bloody world's environment, we should devote our resources to develop these 2 technoologies.

Clean coal and nuclear power aint clean and I hate them. But we need to make a decision fast. We all know it and thats why we are so desperate to develop renewable sources of energy. One thing to note is that I am pro-nuclear and really extremely against clean coal.

Because CLEAN COAL IS JUST SO UNCLEAN Dont be fooled by the word CLEAN. Its FUCKING DIRTY. Clean coal are just technologies to improve efficiencies of power plants and carbon capture. And I am really afraid of the fucking leak of carbon dioxide in the future generations. Unless they solve that problem to a reasonable limit, I will always be against that technology.

So thats all. You might wanna read up on the carbon dioxide leaking and the storage of radioactive nuclear spent fuel and you will understand why I feel more safe burying radioactive spent fuel than carbon dioxide.

my sense of humor

2009-05-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

I failed a test two days ago.

This is the first test I failed in university and this will be my last. I didnt manage my time properly, putting all my time into assignments rather than catching up with the school work.

This is a damn lesson to remember. It will never happened again. I must learn to prioritize things and know my strengths and weaknesses in studies.

When I was sleeping yesterday night, I dreamt that this guy on the road just came to me when I was walking to school and asked "Hey, would you like to trade ALL of your sense of humor for Intelligence and Wisdom?"

The scene was so real that my heart felt scared. I didnt know what was I afraid of but I was really at a loss at that point of time. I wanted make that trade so badly but I just could not say it out.

Somehow the intensity of the fear became so overwhelming I just woke up.

Should I make the trade?

its getting harder...

2009-05-13T04:51:00.000-07:00

No, I am not referring to a particular organ getting harder.

I am talking about my studies. The first half of the semester was pretty easy. However, the workload is getting more and the stuffs are much harder.The next 7 days is crucial. All the major tests and projects for this semester will be cleared after this week. If I cleared these tests and projects successfully, I will be extrememly confident to handle the exams which are a month away.

I've heard many good news over the past 2 weeks. I hope next week will be my turn to tell somebody some good news.

May the Force = F = ma = my'' = (-ky)+(-cy'), be with Everyone.

embarrassement

2009-05-04T00:57:00.000-07:00

I went home today and saw that no lights were on and all rooms were opened, an indication that nobody was home.

So being retarded, I started stalking to myself at home, swearing about missing the train with seats home and about the report I can never finish. After that, I started rapping FAMA's new song.

Then I heard a clicking sound. Crap.
I went out of my room and saw the light from my landlady's room. Screwed.

I felt like digging my head into a pile of shit at the moment. I just closed my door and I am going to pretend that nothing has even happened when I see her later...

Weird dreams

2009-04-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

I have been having weird dreams these past 2 weeks. However, the weirdest of the weirdest dream I had was the one I had this morning.

I was walking up a flight of stairs in which each step is as tall as me. Somehow, I managed to lift my legs so high up I was able to "walk up" the stairs just like walking up a normal flight of stairs.

While I was walking up, there was another guy trying to climb up the stairs as well and he was panting. I overtook him and reached the top of the stairway much earlier than him.

Then, there was a man standing up there waiting with a timer. He is a soccer coach and this flight of stairs was suppose to be a training tool to train the soccer players. He saw that I was able to "walk up" the stairs at such a fast timing he said that I am going to be a talent and told me to join the soccer practise next week. He then fired that guy who was climbing the stairs as I will be replacing him.

It was soccer practise but it wasnt on a soccer field. It was in Festival Park (a park in Tampines, Singapore). A group of people were already training at the monkey bar. The coach was not there and one of the players told me to do the monkey bar. I did it at such an incredible speed everyone looking was clapping ans said that I was a talent and didnt need to "transform".

"transform?"

Then a group of weird shit appeared out of nowhere. I cant really remember all. I only remembered 2 chickens, 2 zebras(one bigger and another smaller. the bigger one had green mane and the smaller one had a blue mane) and one hatching egg with houseflies. They asked me who am I. Before I could reply, they introduced themself. Didnt really remember much about the details but the bigger zebra then said "He looked familiar."

One of the chicken then pointed towards the sky with its wings.

The scene turned to the ocean with a translucent pirate ship. There were some narration but I cant remember it too.

Then the scene changed into a cave setting with the same gang, includuing myself and one extra "treeman" (he has human form with tree skin so I just called him that). The treeman then said "Do you want to transform?"

Then a key and a large stonebook appeared out of thin air and was on his hands. Larva was flowing out of the stone book.

"You have to sign the pact if you want to transform" said the treeman.
The stonebook open and there were many christian crosses made of steel inside.

"I dont need to transform to be good. I will still become the best." I replied.

Oh and in this dream I had army style hair and I look different but I know "I am myself".

Then, my alarm clock rang and I woke up from this weird dream....

If dream can be interpretated, I wonder what this dream means....

Good start for Good friday.

2009-04-09T22:31:00.000-07:00

Cut the long story short. I was exploring another way home yesterday night. The trip took me 3.5hours home. I left school at 6pm...reach home at 930pm.

.............................

Happy Good Friday.

Run

2009-04-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really wonder why...

Why is it that everytime I leave a church, I will have somebody bringing me to another church.

Why is it that I am always getting involve in church activites somehow even when I didnt sign up for it in the first place.

Why are there always chrsitians around me?

I know, I am not the only one who is experiencing this. There can only be 2 explanations to this.
1) The influence of the church is really so great that there are just so many christians that the probability of meeting one in everyday life is almost 0.

or

2) God is really always giving everybody a chance to enter his kingdom.

But if God really has a plan for everybody, can it be possible that I was unable to have faith and believe in the existance of God be a plan from God for me?

Today I was brought to the church again. The lady who was renting the room to me is a Catholic so I went to her church today to have a look.

Seriously, I dont mean to offend anyone but(if I did or am going to, sorry for that)... everytime I looked at the way the altar boys and altar girls are dressed, it reminded me of Jedis in Star Wars....and I almost laughed when the priest said "MAY GOD BE WITH YOU". It almost sounds to me that he was saying "May the Force be with You", without the light saber....

May the Force be with You.

Backed

2009-03-30T00:36:00.000-07:00

Finally had my internet backed. Went to the Year 1 camp for Chemical Engineering.

Had lots of fun and surprisingly, there were more hkers in the course than singaporeans considering the fact that singapore has a good job market for chemical engineers while hk has none.

Travelling to school and back home really sucks.

First round of test is going to start this week. I am still not very confident right now because everybody else is so damn smart and hardworking. I need to do at least slightly above average this time to gain some confidence...

Praying and studying hard....

Long

2009-03-21T05:28:00.000-07:00

It has been long since I;ve last bloggged. This is because of the difficulty in getting a internet access here.

Due to a major miscalculation and misreading of the terms and conditions on my part, I've overshot the internet quota this month.

So I can only get my normal internet access back on this coming Sunday.

Until then, May the Force be with You.

This is by the far the "longest" post. Longest time to load the page....because my internet speed has been throttled to only 32kbps. Thats even slower than the dial up I used 10 years ago.

Wise

2009-03-11T01:32:00.000-07:00

I am finally under control again. Thanks to Patrick's comment on my previous post.

After reading that comment, which is just repeating words of "maths is fun", I realized one thing. My previous post is all about complains and shit. The farking laws of attraction will just give me more shit. In fact, I shouldnt even be using the word shit now because it will just attract more shit which is why you are reading more shit now.

I am going to start attracting all the good now.
Good bye.
Have a nice day ahead.

May the Good Force be with Everybody.

Day 1

2009-03-09T01:23:00.000-07:00

Today is the day where official lessons start. Seriously, the lectures and lessons are totally different from what I experienced in the past. I dont even have time to day dream, doze off, chat or tell a joke.

Because the lecturer just dosent stop and everything is about notes taking. In addition, my english listening skills aint so good. But anyway, I wasnt worrying or panicking during the lectures because I don even have any time for that.

I need to adapt quick.

CHANGE.

aARghhHh

2009-03-03T04:04:00.000-08:00

Coursework is too tough...

Seriously, the notes I cant understand...

The maths problems I cant solve...

Too much catching up to do....

Not going through year 1 and foundation is really a problem. There are just too much shit I dont know. Worst shit of all I am taking two maths modules.

Fark this shit.
My prayers to God: -
I dont really need more intelligence and brain power than what I already have. Of course, it will be a bonus if You are gonna give them to me. Most importantly, I need You to make me become hardworking.

Of course, if you can make tommorrow the end of the world, that would be great. No more studies, no more shit, no more war, no more famine, no more drought, no more suffering.

And May the Force be with Me.

School

2009-02-28T16:34:00.000-08:00

School starts tommorrow.

I've got most of the shit I need to survive here now. After doing some calculations, I guess if I really want to enjoy myself in Sydney and add a few more junks in my room to make it look nicer, I will have to start working.

But I got to catch up with school work first. First time in my life I am serious about school work.

I am actually feeling scared about this. Afraid that I will fail big time the first time I put effort into studies.

I shouldnt be afraid of something that isnt going to happen.

May the Force be with Everyone.

First post

2009-02-26T18:32:00.000-08:00

Finally my internet is up. I wonder if anyone is still reading this.....

Anyway, I am starting to get use to the life here. The people are generally friendly and I have to thank the two people who have helped me alot for these 5 days. Without their help, I think I would be assfarked already.

They are housemate and 'cousin'.

Right now, I am still enjoying the life here since school hasnt started yet. But I foresee tough times ahead once school starts because I am already one year behind students that had gone through year one before. Worse shit is...I've already forgotten most of the stuff learnt.

I cant even do 1+1 now.

So, I have decided to attend school for 2 weeks first before I decide whether to start working or not.

Still have some stuff to buy and settle. Shall blog another time.

5months.

2009-02-17T18:01:00.000-08:00

Seriously, I have already forgotten the date I left Singapore. But I will always remember everything that has happened to me there. All the friends, outings, games, fun, laughters, schools, teachers, places....etc.

I believe I've stayed in HK for 5 months already. Eating out has already become part of my life. KFC and Macdonald has became my best friend.

After 5 more days....and I must adapt to a new lifestyle again.
4 days from now....and I must be prepared to go.
3 days from now....I should have started packing.
2 days from now....I must have bought everything I needed
Tomorrow....I shall plan my checklist on the things I should bring there.
Today....I must decide whether to eat KFC or Macdonald for dinner first.

Time

2009-02-11T23:49:00.000-08:00

Finally, my time table for school is set.

Time left : 11 more days.

Its...

2009-02-02T05:46:00.000-08:00

February, time to get serious.

21 more days.

澳門God~ (1)

2009-01-22T20:58:00.000-08:00

Went to Macau the last Saturdat for a 2 days one night trip with wf and wk. Its my first time to Macau and that place is awesome.

Day 1 -
Checked into the hotel around 5+pm and the headed to the casino. Gambled to 8+pm. Buffet dinner next and then casino again. The slot machine is really addictive.

We stayed in the casino until 12am before we head back to the hotel and started our own blackjack and Big 2 session until 5am.

Everybody lost money that day.

While we were walking out to 7-11 around midnight to get some snacks, we passed by a hotel. Suddenly this hot chick came out of the hotel and looked at wf with lustful eyes. Wf looked back and they stared at one another.

Then the hot chick said "你要嗎？"
Wf obviously shocked, gave a "Huh?"
And the hot chick replied "做愛"
*Long pause*
"No..." wf replied.

I wonder what was wf and wk thinking on their mind during the long pause, but the first thing that came to my mind was the tourism advertisement of Macau shown in Hong Kong....

Day 2 -
Breakfast and then checkout at about 11am. Then it was the beginning of a long march around Macau's sightseeing places. The people in Macau are EXTREMELY friendly. At least all those that we had met on our trip was. There were very helpful, generous and initiative when providing help. These are things I seldom see in Singapore and even less in Hong Kong.

At night, we were planning to enter the casino again but we will have to place our bags in an area which according to wf, is very troublesome. So we took the 1930 boat back to HK.

Finally

2009-01-19T22:12:00.000-08:00

The weather has turned from super cold to normal cold....

New Year Resolutions

2009-01-18T07:21:00.000-08:00

One week has passed and I know exactly what I want this year.

1) 2008 has been a stressful year for myself because there were just too much bad things happening around me. I neglected my health as a result. I was worn down physicall and mentally.

In 2009, I will have my meals on time and will try to strengthen my mental state through meditation.

2) Homework were never done in my secondary school days. There were completed but never done. I copied 99% of my homework.

When I was went into polytechnic, I tried to change this behaviour. I was really motivated at first. In the first 3 semester, I did about 70-90% of all work given to me. In the last 3 semester, it dropped to only 20-40%.

2009, I am going to do ALL work given to me in school.

3) Work part time or save enough money to go bungee jumping in Macau.

4) Adapt to my life in Australia.

To me, this means that I dont want to create any troubles there - No more disciplinary problems.

5) File my notes IMMEDIATELY and bring a file to school. I have one big bad habit since the day i became a sperm, that is I dont have the habit to use a file. Therefore, my room can be very tidy but messy. This means that all my notes of different subjects and topics are stacked into one pile in one corner.....

When I enter university, I wish to change this habit and file all my notes according and IMMEDIATELY.

Tired. Time to sleep.

15 Long Years.......

2009-01-11T21:19:00.000-08:00

Its HWF's birthday today. And in 2009, I've known him for almost 15 years already.

Which means 2 more months it will be my turn to be 21.

F!

冷清

2009-01-10T01:21:00.000-08:00

HK is much colder today than any other days.

Somehow, the cold weather reminds me of this guy in X-Files where his emotions controls the weather.

And today, the weather in HK displays my feeling.

The Force aint with me today.

New Year Resolution

2009-01-07T01:15:00.000-08:00

Everything is falling into place finally. I am 50% ready to go to Australia now. By next Saturday, I should be about 90% ready.

I should, hopefully.

Soon I got to leave HK again.

Anyway, I believe many people have already thought of their new year resolutions since its already one week after the new year. New year resolutions will allow me focus on my goals only and not waste my time on useless crap.

So here is my New Year Resolution.

1) To have my new year resolutions by the end of next week.

That is my new year resolution. New year resolutions next week.

May the force be with you.

Ocean Park

2009-01-03T23:57:00.000-08:00

I went to ocean park 2 days ago with wf, wk and lt. It was the first time I am going there during the festive season and the queue was long (of course, I had seen longer things...I was talking about longer queues). Average about 1 hour of queue per ride and it was really pissing me off. On normal days when everyone is schooling and working, there wasnt any queue at all and you can at least take every ride three times and still have time to see the animals and plants.

Anyway, its 2009 and I have some aspiring wishes for every age group, sex, religion and race.

For the children, Happy New Year.
For the teenagers, Happy New Year.
For the young adults, Happy New Year.
For the adults, Happy New Year.
For the elderly, Happy New Year.

For those studying, Happy New Year.
For those not studying, Happy New Year.
For those working, Happy New Year.
For those not working, Happy New Year.
For those in army, Happy New Year.
For those not in army, Happy New Year.

For all the males Happy New Year.
For all the females, Happy New Year.

For everyone who worship at least one God, Happy New Year
For everyone who dont worship any God, Happy New Year

For everyone else I missed out, Happy New Year to You too.

May the Force be with Everyone this year.

WTF

2008-12-26T08:57:00.001-08:00

Something WTF had just happened.

I always put on my retainer after I brush my teeth before I sleep and take them off when I wake up to brush my teeth.

Just now, after I brushed my teeth before I was going to sleep, I took up the box containing my retainer and opened it. The retainer was NOT inside.

I looked around the toilet, living room and my room and the box AGAIN. The retainer was nowhere to be found. Then I tried to recall whether did I take out my retainer this morning when I brushed my teeth. I dont remember taking them out. Then I had this thought when freaked me out. I was thinking that I had sleep walked during the night and put my retainer somewhere outside of the street (Yes, I know its foolish and WTF). The more I think about it the more scared I become.

Then I told wf about it in the online game and he said that I was hallucinating and needed some sleep and then he went to sleep. I calmed myself down and I went back to the toilet and opened up the retainer box to look again.

My retainer was inside.

WTF?!

Was I really hallucinating before that?
Was that "ghost cover eyes"?
Was I thinking too much?

I dont know. I hope nothing "WTF" happens again.

Dead as a Shit

2008-12-19T17:07:00.000-08:00

It has been quite a long time since I last blogged. The reason is because I havent been doing much interesting things lately beside paying the computer games, shopping and working. Same old rountine every single week. I soon realize how much things I had left undone.

Too much things to be done.
Too little time.

Screw procastination.

I just looked at the course structure yesterday. Looks like I got to face my worse nightmare, Statistics, for the first semester. I still never really figure out how that shit works. This time, I hope to get this right.

I still have not settle my university stuff and I have a feeling that it is getting too late. I am not going to enjoy my CHirstmas is that is not done by then. But I am still waiting for the email that I had sent to the school requesting for some help. I am really at a lost on what courses to choose for the first semester since I am not following the usual course structure due to the credit exemptions.

Christmas is coming.....

I still think this is the best christmas song ever.

New

2008-12-15T08:35:00.000-08:00

Bored at Home.

Updates

2008-12-04T23:32:00.001-08:00

Few things happened this week.

Applied for my student visa and went for the medical checkup. This checkup is much faster than I expected. I thought it would be like the NS checkup with those bloodtest, privates check, pee-on-the-strip and those weird shit medical machines check. The one I had is just a few qna, and very few other simple checks done in about 30mins.

Another "event" was my father's birthday. He called early in the morning (rare) and told me something which can be easily done through the msn (common). Well, I didnt wish him anything although that was the first thing I remmebered when I woke up from bed. I waited all the way till late at night and just leave him a offline message. I know what everybody is thing. Yes, I am a bastard.

Supervisor from the restaurant I previously worked at called. She knew I was back because I had dinner almost everyday there. She asked me to help out. SO later I am going to help out abit (with pay of course). But it seems that I will have to "help out" more often next week because everybody there wants their holiday.

Overall, most of my time in HK is now spent in gaming, a drug I thought I managed to quit. Thats why I decided to go back to work so that I dont waste anymore extra time.

Its abit early but just to remind everybody that christmas is coming and lets not forget those that are in need.
http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=8jEnTSQStGE

May the Force be with You.

Backed

2008-11-30T00:33:00.000-08:00

Finally back in HK again. Staying for another 2 months here before I head off to Australia.

December is going to be busy with all those applications and play...
hopefully I will have some motivation to do some revision....

Welcome Home

2008-11-20T04:38:00.001-08:00

Today, Mr HWF is returning to HK from Singapore for good, just like what I did 3 months ago. Congrats and hope that he will enjoy his new life in HK.

Life has still been great for me in HK although I feel really damn lonely due to a lack of any close friends to hang out with.

I hope everyone in Singapore is doing better everyday and they will still remember who TCH is. ANyway, whether anyone remember me or not, I will always remember every friend that I made in Singapore.

Long time

2008-11-09T22:43:00.000-08:00

It has been quite a long time since I blogged anything. There are several reasons for that but the excuse that I am going to give will be that I had been busy with work.

Anyway, the weather has dropped significantly since Saturday and I assume that winter has come. The wind is relatively strong so those coming to HK please bring a jacket to fight the coldness.

Now, I really regretted taking the easy way out by going up to China to work for my father. Although its really slacker life up there, but its hard for me to make any real friends.

My life was tough in HK but I had colleagues and customers that would joke and laugh with me.

And if I was still in Singapore...I could be...
1) Serving the army....
2) Chilling out with my friends...
3) In detention camp/jail due to overstaying...

Homeground.

2008-10-23T20:15:00.000-07:00

After about 2 weeks in China, I finally had a chance to go back to HK for a day.

While I was taking the lift in HK, I was looking at a letter from the bank and I forgot to press the lift. An aunty then reminded me "Havent press the lift ah!" in cantonese. I didnt know why but my reply was "Sorry!"

When I reached home, I realize the lights were on....I didnt switch them off before I left to China the last time...

And then I went backed to the restaurant where I used to work in for breakfast. Surprisingly and at the same time not so surprised, the same regular customers were there. I greeted them and most still remember me and they thought I was still working there but changed shift.

Now its time to restock some stuffs before I have to go back to China again.

Boredddd

2008-10-20T06:39:00.000-07:00

I AM SO FUCKING BORED HERE!!!!

Im...

2008-10-14T00:16:00.000-07:00

I am down with a very bad cold and I feel like like shit both emotionally and physically.

I have njo strength to walk, no brains to think and feel extremely depressed or pissed over small matters.

I thought China milk only affects the kidneys....

2 weeks

2008-10-12T19:47:00.000-07:00

It has been 2 weeks since I came up here to China. I didnt learnt anything up here except for nothing. I have no friends here and I am not even going online to chat with anybody. I am cut off from the world. But these gave me time and environment to really think of my life.

I can say now that I understand myself more and I finally have some objectives for the first time in my life.

I hope its not all too late.